Monday, February 6, 2012

I have a secret...

So, yeah.  On Thursday afternoon, I was really itching for a hardcore, heart rate spiking, heavier weights lifting, real good workout.  On Friday morning, I woke up at 5:00 a.m. for the gym like I usually do.  Since I knew it was getting close to time for me to start my period, I went ahead and took a pregnancy test, just in case.

Yeah, it was postive.  O_o

Just barely though.  So, I went ahead and skipped the gym.  Because I'm addicted to peeing on things, I tested again Saturday morning.  It was still positive, but still pretty faint.  So I tested again Saturday afternoon.  Now it was very obviously positive.  And, just for good measure, I tested Sunday morning on a digital one.  You know the kind that either says "pregnant" or "not pregnant"?  Yeah that kind.  It says "pregnant"!!! 

Holy crap I'm pregnant again.

Yes, I am an absolute paranoid neruotic mess.  Yes, I'm a bit worried to do...well, anything really.  But honestly, I'm actually pretty calm.  The worry and neuroses don't go bone deep like they did last time.  I'm hoping this is a good sign!

NOW!  This part is very important!!!  We are not announcing on Facebook. So, if you have comments/well-wishes/advice/whatever, please keep it to either comments here on the blog, email, or private messages on FB or something.  Please keep it off of the public FB wall. 

The reason is this:  I am of the firm belief that miscarriage and pregnancy loss needs to NOT be a taboo topic anymore.  Unfortunately, the only way to do that is to talk about it.  That means announcing early in pregnancy, then unannouncing if something happens.  However, my husband doesn't want to go through that pain again.  Which I completely respect and understand.  Untelling people sucks.  A lot.  So, the Ashley-can-post-on-her-blog-but-we-will-keep-it-off-Facebook was our compromise.  So if I do get a message on my wall, please don't be offended when I delete it.

As far as the RESOLVE group goes, Kristi will be hosting instead of me.  Just because *I'm* pregnant doesn't mean there is any less of a need for a group in town.

OMG I'm pregnant.  I think I'm going to puke. LOL


  1. I am super duper uber excited!!! Congrats! :)

  2. I am super duper uber excited!!! Congrats! :)

  3. Jealous, but SO HAPPY for you!!! Thoughts and prayers for a take home baby this time. I definitely understand your paranoia.

  4. Sending sticky vibes your way. It's not easy to not worry, especially after loss. You're right though...pregnancy loss is NOT a taboo subject!

  5. I like the compromise! I can understand that untelling people sucks, but I like your outlook that it shouldn't be taboo! When I found out I was expecting Landon, I never felt like I couldn't tell you... you were actually the first one to know after Justin, since you happened to come on messenger in the middle of the night just after I found out.

    As I said via text, I'm extremely excited for you guys. I'm glad you posted your blog link - I didn't know you had a blog. I'll add you to my reader. :)

  6. Puking would be standard procedure now! lol

    Love you sis. Prayers going up for you guys :)

  7. I know how you are feeling right now. Just wanted you to know that you are in our thoughts and prayers. Please keep us informed on how you are feeling. Love ya